I was so busy for Him, involved in everything and every activity for Him, so much so that I longed for more days in the week. However, even with 10 days in a week, I would have still felt the same, unfulfilled aching inside, with a desperate longing to please my God.
And then one glorious day, in His love, mercy and grace, as He did to Saul, He chose to reveal His Son IN me. I didn’t have Paul’s experience as on the Damascus Road, but slowly, by His Spirit within me, He gave me revelation and understanding of the Life of His Son IN me….. “Christ in me, the hope of glory”. No more activities, no more striving, no more aching inside, for me, just quietness & a “Sabbath rest” in my wonderful Lord. I was loved, accepted, holy & righteous, before my Father (no longer God, but Father) because of His Son who was now my Life.
That was 22 years ago. Since then I have moved from the kindergarten, to the school, to the university…of Christ, to learn Him and not about Him. What do I mean by that, you may ask? It is by way of the CROSS…..LIFE through DEATH, His Life becoming my Life, through my dying.
The Cross and my position relative to the Lord Jesus, costs me that and that is, to go down in death. What is of God, comes back, and what is not of Him, I become content to do without. I come up onto resurrection ground, up in the Victory of His Life, in the power of that Life within me.
All those years of striving through my own activities and efforts, could never, and would never, have pleased my Father, because it is only His Son that can do that. Now, through my life hid In Him, I am what my Father purposed for me “before the foundation of the world”, that I would be filled with Christ, and He would be glorified.
Only as I began to understand more and more, by the Holy Spirit, of that purpose of the Father, to bring me to the place of “fullness in Christ” could I understand the meaning and working out of the Cross in my Life. I am learning to embrace that Cross. It is not about me, it is ALL about HIM.
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